Since I am MOST decidedly not a nervous wreck any more, I figured it was time for a new entry. I don't have much going on, though.
It's Thursday, which means I'm getting ready to go to church for an 8-hour marathon. I love it, though. We have our 4-6 year olds choir, then our elementary choir, then we (my boss and I) go out for dinner and a planning session, then we come back for handbells and chancel (grownup) choir. I absolutely CHERISH every second with the children. They learn new music so fast that they remind me of a giant sponge. I can't feed them fast enough. My accompanist and I both laugh at how if I just mention the title of a song, they begin singing it with such gusto that it takes me five minutes to quiet them down and explain whatever point I was trying to make.
I have the sense when I'm with them that I'm doing exactly the RIGHT thing to do. It feels like I'm doing what I was designed by nature to do. It's a feeling I've really never had before in my life, and it's grand. (But it's a blessing I don't have to try to make a living doing it.)
I'm about to leave for the gym, and I've already been three times this week. I'm also doing very well with Atkins this time--staying on it effortlessly and having that curious energy that you get when you're in ketosis. So that's good.
I am a complete idiot. I'm involved in a gigantic argument on a message board. I am "fighting" with a bossy, Southern fundamentalist "Christian" man who thinks he is right, and "righteous" about everything. This argument got started, unsurprisingly, because of my feelings about Prop 8. He looks down on homosexuals, believes that the government should be Christian, believes that life begins at conception and that abortion is "murder" (I don't know why he thinks it's ok, then, to murder those innocent "souls" who are the product of rape. I guess they are less deserving than other fetuses.) He has a scripture to quote for everything. He has said that I don't know the Bible, that I "seem like an atheist." He is indescribably, infuriatingly smug and his reply to nearly all my responses, was "oh come, if you're such a Biblical scholar, you can do better than that." By the time I departed the argument, I was so upset that my hands were shaking. Why, oh why, do I get myself into these things? I asked him, as I left (for good, because he's not worth letting my day be ruined) if he thought that his behavior and attitude were worthy of Jesus, if he believes that he is helping others find faith with his words, since that is the primary responsibility of any Christian. I'd like to go back and see what he said, but don't let me! Please, don't let me!
Peace out.